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| Tonight I took the first step in what has been an almost 11 year journey. When I was 17 I began to have ankle problems, problems that 2 surgeries weren't able to completely fix. In the early days, just walking could be difficult. The church that I went to then had a dance ministry, and I loved to watch even though I was a bit envious. Those who could dance, when I could barely walk. Looking back, I think it was something deeper though. There was a desire to dance just like they were doing.
In the last couple of months, I've begun to dance lightly around my apartment as I have on praise music or just when I feel like singing. Easter Sunday I realized that I needed to join the dance ministry which is starting up at my church. We had our first practice tonight, and while I still struggle with my foot at times, just practicing felt like a victory. The Bible says to call what is not into fruition, and tonight I literally stepped into that. I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that God is going to heal me and fulfill the promises he made. I know this is going to happen in the near future, not only that, but I told God when he heals me, I want him to heal my little sister who suffers from fibromyalgia. Our healings will be a testimony to those around us, those who have watched us battle at ages far younger than we should have to. As I left tonight, the magnitude of what I had been involved with was a little overwhelming. Even though my body is sore, my spirit is lifted up.
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| In updating my Xanga profile, I realized I needed to update my blog. Another month has passed, and many things have taken place in my life. I did think it was Spring, until I had to forgo my sleeveless, lightweight Easter dress for pants, boots, and my coat since it was in the 30s Easter morning. In my last blog, I talked about how my grandmother wasn't doing well. On March 15th, exactly 11 years to the day that my granddaddy died, my grandmother joined him. Two days later, much like it was yesterday on Easter Sunday we sat in the cold, blowing wind and buried her.
Funerals are a strange time to feel emotions like pride, yet during my grandmother's funeral I experienced one of the proudest moments of my life. The pastor who preached her funeral had come to know my grandmother over the years and as he talked about her life and her walk with the Lord he talked about a legacy being passed down. He spoke of my mom and then he mentioned my sister and I by name and how he knew the type of lives we lived and how he had gone on missions trips etc. with us. It really got to me because I have tried to live my life in such a way that is pleasing to God, and to linked to my grandmother who was such a saint was truly a proud moment of my life. I've often heard that death calls to the living, and I think in this case it truly called to me.
I ask this, if you had to look back at your life, what would people say of it? Would they rejoice because you were now with your savior as we did, or would be saddened because they didn't know if you were or they knew you weren't.
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| Well once again I have let this blog go way too long without an entry, but this time I do feel as though I have some excuse. In mid-January my sister got married, which was quite wonderful but it did make my life leading up to it, quite busy. It seems as though since my life has yet to settle down. I'm beginning to believe that my life will never quite settle down. It seems like the entire family has been sick at one point since the wedding. My sister came back from her honeymoon sick, I had the flu. My grandmother had pneumonia which put her in the hospital etc.
Then this week, we thought we were going to lose my grandmother. She is 92 and is not doing well. I went to see her today and though I thought I was prepared, I really wasn't. I would ask for your prayers for my family, my aunt has come from Ft. Lauderdale and thankfully got here on Wednesday before our stormy day on Thursday. Thankfully Tuscaloosa was spared a bad tornado hit, though at one point the weather man spoke of a very strong signature right over downtown which is just up from my library. Looking at the high school in Enterprise, I realized how easily that could have been my library or multiple buildings over at the university.
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| Merry Christmas to one and all,
I'll admit I have not been very good about keeping up my blog, unlike some people especially a certain friend who is now living in Boston  . In the new year I am going to try to do better, because I do think it is important to let your friends know what is going on in your life. I think part of it deals with the fact that I spend a lot of time at work in front of a computer and when I'm home I don't want to sit and work at the computer again. Lately it has to do with the fact that it is the holidays which are always busy, but this year there is a twist. My little sister got engaged Thanksgiving week and is getting married in January. Yes folks that would be this January. It is a good thing though, her fiancee Jerod is a really great guy and fits in quite well with my family. Still it has added to the craziness of this month. I had to get something from a certain store in the mall today and it was a little crazy, even crazier than Walmart which I didn't think was possible on a Saturday.
It is hard to believe that Christmas is only a week away, especially since the last week it has been warmer here and doesn't feel like Christmas. I won't complain though, I do hate winter and cold. I marched in a parade 2 weeks ago, and it was quite frigid, at least what we here in the south consider frigid. This past Wednesday night, my church had our kid's christmas production. They told the story of the Nativity from the animals perspective. I really enjoyed it, the kids were funny and the message really came out even in their humor. It was sad though that a lot of people seemed to stay home that night. Kids have a lot to teach us adults about Christ. They have a honesty and an innocence that adults lack, though I think a lot of adults look fondly back and wish they did have that innocence. Maybe that is why so many adults love Christmas time, it brings them back to that innocent time of childhood.
If I don't blog again before Christmas, I wish one and all another very Merry Christmas.
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| There are times in life, when God speaks to you in a still small voice, and there are other times when he blasts you and it is loud and clear what He is trying to tell you. Well the last month, it has been the latter and not the former. God started something new in me about a month ago when I went to a women's conference with my church and He hasn't let up. This weekend I was visiting my parents, so I went to the church I grew up in where they live instead of my home church. It is always good to see old friends and be out of town a while. This morning the pastor at the church up there, talked about directly and was tied in with what my Pastor here at home has been preaching about. It was very in my face and very cool for that matter. It is hard to explain just what God is doing, other than it is a new thing. I have new desires spiritually and I know that where God is taking me is into a new place. It seems as though new things are happening for many of my friends as well. One has already moved and one is soon to move and possibly may marry the guy she will be living close to, and this doesn't talk about my sister who is also in love and may marry as well. Anyway, once again I am rambling and should end.
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